Need an extremly good advise my situation is wearing me down?

ok so i met this really good looking guy last year and coz i always had a thing for looks instantly liked him but not love coz i dont believe in it at all anywz we started talking and msgn late nigts and after about 3 months we had our smooch but my parents came to find out about that the very same day coz whenever i try n hide sumthn frm them they automatically come to know ;not that they hit me or sumthn but just scolded me from dat day onwards i never spoke to him but still used to think about him a lot . at the start of this year i came to know that he used to show my msgs to just about everyone and for months had i become a laughing stock he told everyone that he touched me just about everywhere WHICH NEVER HAPPEND and many months passed by explaning others i didnt do anythn and the mental trauma i had gone through is totally unexplainable nw aftr 1 year also not a day passes by that i dont think of him BUT NOW I HATE HIM i keep imaging situations when i m with another guy n trying to make him jealous and humiliated i know this is sheer jealousy from my side considering he has already hooked up with another girl i hate myself even thinking of him and have vowed to never like a guy ever again plzzzzzzzzzzzz tell me as to what i should do to get rid of such thoughts and no talking to him shouldnt be one of the options